In 2020, the state of emergency was lifted and I went to the beach after a long time and got a bad sunburn. My skin burns and the dead skin gradually lift. The texture of the skin resembled the larvae of silkworms I used to touch, then I started to raising silkworms. The experience of raising silkworms was somehow intense for me. From the beginning to the end, I made observations in my own hands. Before long, my thoughts and body felt vaguely cramped, as if wound up in the silkworm's thread. I do not know whether I'm going to cast off the skin or cocoon. But I remember the comforts of them I left behind.

In September 2023, I moved from Tokyo to Amsterdam. I’m still in a blurry place. I make words and images as if I were touching the blurry place. When I do this, there are moments when I locally see details very clearly. It could be just my imagination, or I might realize the next day that I'm mistaken. In my daily life I feel their touch and connect with them. I want that connection to be loose and flexible and a little bit strong. I know It may be too convenient, but I feel like it would save me.